Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Still Sleeping but Finally Awakening 6.18.08

Ahh it feels great to take a breath of fresh air. I have just been through one of the worst weekends of my life. I don't want to focus too much on it because I have since grown and realize where my faults were. Breaking up is not an easy thing to do but I have read about my wrongdoings and now I am ready to move on. It is pretty disgusting when you see all the wrong things you've been doing and you knew little about them beforehand during the time you were doing them. I can honestly say that I feel little more empowered today, because I have rid myself of the insecurities, the neediness, and the weakness that I previously had.

The girl I had been in a relationship with had played games with me to my breaking point, but now I can confidently say that the tables will turn. I predict that when she goes back to her college town she will become lonely and need me once again only to receive my small talk and early exit in conversation. And if not, then oh well, I'm over her so it is now time to focus on the more attractive ladies out there. My next goal besides finding and securing a job is to get a date. I realize women are quite choosy however I will not shy away from them. I will confidently walk, flirt and scoop the ones that I can get some temporary satisfaction from. Let it be known that YoutStar LIVES.